loneliness

why..?

Why do you do this to me?...Why do you do this so easily...?..

nothing

im...so tired...So tired of being alone....

Love hurts

     Maybe i'm just too weak right now, Maybe i'm too scared to get dumped again..Maybe i'm too hard to love or maybe i'm just a piece of trash who don't deserved love. 

    But what can i do?. nothing. even if i end up being the loser again,fuck, I can't even walk away even if she doesn't really need me..All i can do is Stay and Love her with all my strength..i want to spend my remaining life for her, Remaining life? no i'm not dying but my heart is..i'm losing my mind too fast and i feel that any moment my heart will explode. But its all my fault..i'm too stupid to be honest, She's not even mine and she made me realize that with this past few days..weeks..months. But i'm still here being a nuisance by bothering her every damn time she don't want to talk to me.Its my fault for wanting to be loved, I don't even know anymore. I just need more time..more time to realize that i need to accept my fate..to accept that i'm not enough...yeah...i'm still not enough...truth hurts...